.:: the reading ::.

so yesterday was the day i had my anticipated psychic reading. and i'm still not sure what to think? boy, was i nervous as heck.

the three things i wanted to hit on was career, finances, and family. since it was my first one, i was unsure of how it went - if he just talked, if i asked questions, and he said all readings are different. since i had the questions, i went ahead and shot away. right away he sensed i was sensitive, caring, and not agressive at all. (all pretty true).

career - he said he saw "books" around me, that i'd go back to school soon. he felt like change was coming - lots of changes.  he felt like it'd be more of a community college thing than an actual university again. 

when i mentioned interests and what i should be pursuing, the whole photography thing came up. he said that i'm the one holding myself back. he said i'd be in a fish in water as soon as i got into it, and i'd surprise myself that i  had a real knack for it once i let myself go. he found that i should definitely be doing something more creative and hands on. he mentioned "fashion" photography, and i was like "--ughh, magazines?" all he could really draw was that it wasn't like "vogue" or anything, just that there were a lot of people dressed up around me.

2 years time he says - i'll be focusing all my energy on school and building something of my own the next 2 years before the family starts. he said it'll take off very, very fast.

family - he said j and i are very happy, very compatible, and that we'll have a long, happy marriage. i asked him what i could be doing to strengthen our relationship, or what i could do to correct anything, and he said nothing was needed, that we will and are genuinely happy.

kids are coming in 2 years time -- after i finish the school and supposedly start building the business, it'll happen immediately.  we'll have one boy, one girl, one year apart. *eeep. so now you guys are all witnesses to this!!! we'll see if this really happens. this is my second person/psychic telling me about "2".

finances - we sort of touched upon this, but not really. he encouraged us to find a bigger house to rent for now, and rent our condo at the moment.

other - he said that there is an "ed", "edward", "eddie" around me. i asked him - like a protective guide? he said it's someone who is around me from the other side. i don't have any relatives or anyone i can think of? i told him i'd have to sit on that name.

.....after all these questions , i still have more questions.  when he was telling me this, it's just so much to take in.

i'm still not sure how i feel. i'm still not feeling totally positive about it.  i feel like all of this was already in my head, and i was just hearing him agree with me, so him saying "uh huh, uh huh, my guides are telling me this" .. almost makes me feel like i got shafted $$ wise. especially since i felt like i was facilitating a lot of the questions.

the career thing - well, it helps in a way since i was trying to decide on what i should be doing, and a lot of stuff has been flowing in my head, but i'm still not so sold on this. i did take a look last night at some community colleges who did offer photography classes at night, and lo and behold, i did find one.

i almost feel like i need a second opinion, like going to the doctor's. lol.

..was it worth the time and money? i'm still not sure. maybe in 2 years time, i'll feel better about it. but if it's all about making it happen, we'll see?

i do know i'm scared. and yes, it's probably myself holding myself back because of these fears. i just really need to let go!

.:: halloween 09 ::.

i feel like i am waaay too old to do this dressing up and going out downtown these days. did it before plenty times, done... and the only reason why we attempted this year was because my old roomie was in town..and another couple who we're friends with who says they never really went out on halloween wanted to do it this year!

the ridiculous traffic, parking fees, and all that are so no bueno. i'm so over it -- and the thing is? we never made it on time to meet the other couple and her friends b/c it took sooooo long to find parking that we didnt' make the guestlist cut-off.

i did like looking at everyone's costumes who were super awesome and creative, but seriously could've done without some girls who were a little -- well, as i always wonder, a la "mean girls" -- why is halloween an excuse to dress up like a skank?

we ended up at house of blues since we saved some tickets for us just in case. we didn't stay that long, i ended up getting sick (something was waaay off with that alcohol..!) and ended up leaving early, getting ramen, and home at a decent time still.

halloween is all about the kids these days. maybe we're ready to move onto the next level?

{college roomie, niece and nephews}